I left behind all that I knew,
came here, once more socially withdrew.
Becoming once more what I had been,
Staying what I will always be, trapped in sin.
But I chanced leaving behind the shell,
I'd cast it aside, forgetting my hell.
I loved you, loved you so much,
I'd have give my life for but a simple touch.
I believed you cared and for once I mattered,
How wrong could I be left helpless, heartless, shattered.
I begged, I pleaded, said how much I cared,
But in the end you'd lied and would only stare.
I wanted to be in your embrace forever angel of mine,
But all that is left of me is a slow decay, I'm dying.
An near empty abyss, a crimson to black stain,
All that is left of a once loving heart, left now in pain.

Now a chance has come, for a final end,
For me to finally heal and mend.
But what price must I fight for and defend,
What rules will I have to break and bend?
I've begun chaging and I'm not the only one ot see it,
But can I trust myself this time to finally forget the sadness of my pit?
Or will this be another folly, a hoax in which I fall,
Where once more faith betrays me and again I lose all.
I care again, but know not what to believe,
I trust in you, but I am so sorry if I leave..

"My apologies..  May I make my amends?"

In you deepest affections I do bestow,
plant the seeds and let them grow.
Let me heal the wounds of a jaded past,
forget your pains caused by the last.
I will be your bleeding guide,
having been there I'd nearly died.
You shouldn't have to do this alone,
sins you didn't commit, not yours to atone.
Take my hand and be steady once more,
walk with me upon knees once sore.
Cradle your self now safe into my arms,
as I speak and dispel those harms.
Watch me, my ever gazing eyes,
and know now that I tell no lies.
For you angel, you are the one,
the last in my search, I'm finally done.

But I am truly sorry my beloved, I realy am,
for what you know me to be, I am the damned.
I can help you, it's not too late to follow,
but I'm nothing more than a facade gone hollow.
I know your pains and I will be there,
for once I'm not just pretending to care.
But please Angel, forget about me this day,
let death have me, it's better this way.
You don't know that I still cry,
A silent wish that one day I'll die.
In my eyes you may see that I care,
taking this moment your so beautiful I stare..
Forget curing me, curing the wounds of the dead,
It isn't you fault, these  pains of my past long ago said.

Ask now of me, and you shall recieve,
I'm sorry, I never meant to decieve.
I gave you the perception of another,
One not so far from being all together.
But the truth is we always hide how we feel,
I've lied and I've hidden this great ordeal.
Ask of my burden and I shall bear the story,
but be wary for the end holds no glory..